Super Freak. Not the One Rick James Is Singing About: Not So Random Thoughts Before Bed


I just read a quote that stated “Stuff happens everyday to everyone. The difference is how people deal with it.” Being proactive towards life instead of reactive is a sign of maturity and growth. There was a time in my life when I was the “Super Freak… the Super Control Freak that is”. I wanted to control everything and everyone in it. If it/they were broken I wanted to fix’em. My life at one point was a never ending episode of unnamed-1

I had some serious Janet Jackson-like control issues. giphy

Being a control freak causes anxiety. It drove me, my children and my  significant other crazy and eventually I got on my own nerves. Being a control freak does not allow you the ability to live in the moment and enjoy life. It stifles your creativity as well as the creativity of those around you. Now let’s be clear. I was not a Mommy Dearest, no wire hangers, scrub the floors Christina (can you tell it’s one of my favorite movies though?) type of control freak. I was more of a subtle my idea or my way of doing things is probably better type of control freak.

Control freaks also have a knack for being very persuasive. And a great control freak has the ability to be downright manipulative, but in a very non-threatening manner. Am I driving down your lane yet?

Many things have happened in my life that altered my relationship with control:

  • Being a mom (X3)
  • Divorce
  • Death
  • My son living with his dad full-time
  • Illness (mental, physical, spiritual)
  • Disappointment
  • Loss of friendships/relationships
  • Financial instability
  • Having a piss poor prayer life
  • Hell, just life in general

So, how did I release my inner Super Control Freak? I gained a deeper understanding of the God I serve. We know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. I love God. I know that I am called by Him. And I walk in the purpose He gave me. Then I also know that ALL things (the good, bad, ugly and indifferent) work together.

So now I do more chilling and less controlling. I know who holds the future.

Yep, Jesus can even save the Super Freak. And not just the one Rick James is talking about!